The belly blog

First I would like to say that after re-reading my blog from last night, it was obvious that I was in serious need of sleep, my spelling and grammar was t-e-r-r-i-b-l-e! I obviously was a sleep deprived zombie.

 So I know you all are just waiting to see my belly and know what on earth has brought me to the point of flashing the world, but ya'all are just gonna have to hold yer horses and read for a while ( or for the rebels, just scroll down ha ha ). This is my update on diet/ excersize/ weight loss world. I have basically not had time to do much of anything but study, volunteer, and work for the last 2-3 weeks. So therefore the couch 2 5k has been on the back burner :( wah wah. I am going to the gym after this, so its back on the saddle again. I will be running that damn 5 k in Chicago, if they have to bring me oxygen at the finish line!! I did work out with my trainer 2x a week up until last week which I only did one and I will be doing one session tomorrow for this week. On the food front, I would say I have been concious, but more concious that I am not eating very well!

Here's my dilema: My band is tight! I mean like I don't even eat 1/2 of a cup tight. I am not even hungry until 12:00 tight. I am not PB'ing all over the place, but I take two, three, five bites - and thats it, thats a meal. I know this is not good, but I am teatering on the idea of getting a slight unfill. I kind of like how tight I am, it in a way liberates me. I literally will eat anything I want, but I can only eat about 3 bites of it. Yesterday, I had an extra large sugarfree redbull and probably 10 fruit snacks all day, that is it. Ok I know that sounds terrible, but in my defense I had a presentation and a final so I was practising, and studying all day and then I has ESL classes and then I went to bed! But I was not even hungry or felt a need to get food. This is the end of eating what I love until I can no longer look at it (OK that hasn't happened in months) or until its coming back up (that, unfortunately has happened in a much shorter amount of time :S). I cannot eat alot, but I can eat a little of everything. I do wish that I could eat meals, because I do tend to eat just a little of the good stuff and then an hour when Im no longer "filled" I am left stuffing myself with ice cream. I have a fill appointment tomorrow, I know if I tell the doc I can only eat 5 bites of solid food at a time, he will throwing me on the bed and sticking me like its no tomorrow, and maybe thats what I need, but right now I dont have to make decisions, my band is doing it for me and well I am sort of liking it.

When I did have the time to run and work out and tried to make good eating decisions I was bouncing aroung the 198 range for, well since the second to last week of the challenge. I was frustrated, but then I realized I didnt have time to worry about it . I stopped stepping on that scale, I stopped working out, and I stopped worrying about what I was eating. So needless to say yesterday I was not looking forward to stepping that scale. And do you know what it said?! 193!! Holy Cow! I was not expecting that - at ALL! And then when I got on the scale this morning it said 191!!! 191, do you know that that means I am almost in the 180's I am 6 pounds away from 100 pounds down - now that is an accomplishment!! I know that the scale is going to play games with my head and will be up abit tomorrow, but Im ok with it.

Alright alright, now my belly stuff. I have really started to notice my body (at least with my upper body) really start to look nice, working out with my trainer has helped me alot, although I want my butt lifted and thighs tightened, what I am getting for now are toned shoulders and back and a flat stomach! My stomach is slimming down nicely I must say and so I took some pictures last night and thought I should share the flatness.

We'll start with a face pic (as I don't want my stomach to be on everyone's dashboard, someday I will take pictures of me with makeup, but I never think to take pictures when I have just put on makeup so you guys just get to see my face with only makeup residue .  

Alright, well now here is my belly, Im a bit nervous to show you, you get to see my zebra stripes (stratch marks) battle wounds (surgery scars). Along with a few new freinds, allow me to introduce you to my ribs and my port!!!

Do ya see it?!!!