Today I cried .... happy tears!

Yesterday was exhausting, I took my exam ( I got a B- which by the way I am NOT happy about). Midterms stress me out and I didn't do exceptional on the eating front as I was studying, and I didn't sleep all night, so my trying to work on the weight front has been on a scale of 1 -10 a 3 I would say. As I am 100% on everything kind of girl I didn't really like that, but when I am in survival mode (surviving midterms in this case) I just try to make it through the days. I then went to Max and Erma's and got tortilla soup with the ex and had a warm baked cookie - totally delish, but definitely not health or scale friendly. Went home and went straight to bed! I awoke and did the standard routine of going to the bathroom, getting butt naked and getting on the scale. And the results were: 

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drum roll please!!!

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Yes ladies and gentlemen that is right so after my 2 weeks of disaster and last weekend that was a ehh at the most I got on the scale and it said 213!!!! I cried, I started my period today so I am crying at everything, but I did, I bawled like a little baby. 

So its 6 lbs, thats great, but why are crying you nut case? Well I am 2 lbs UNDER my lowest adult weight ever. Yes, I weight less now than I did when I was 17! And in addition to that I AM NO LONGER OBESE!!!!! Today I am only overweight and I am so excited! I feel like I just won an award, like Halle Berry when she was the first African American woman to win an Academy award. I have struggled with so much doubt and wondering if I can do it. I truly felt like I was going to weight 219 for the rest of my life and maybe that was it for me. Could I just be happy there. And after eating my emotions and feeling powerless and horrible. I now see that this is in my head. My biggest enemy is myself! I am in control of my life I make it what it will be. And I am not perfect, but now I have help, that sassy broad inside me won't take my abusive behavior of binging to feign and cover my emotions. I have you all who I can actually talk about my issues with and who are a great support! By the way thanks to those of you who did send some supportive comments. And I have myself, I am strong, honest, and hard working and as long as I use those things to help myself I can achieve whatever I set out to!!  

But, on a bit of a note, I am concerned that the scale was somehow lying to me. Where did those 6lbs go??? How can I weight 219 a week ago and have 4 bad days, and 3 OK days and have not excersized (grant it I have been working all weekend and I serve so I move around alot), not slept for a whole day, been stressed, and start my period (which almost always means a 3 lb bloat) and lose 6 lbs? Is my scale playing tricks on me? Am I going to reweigh and it back to 216?? I don't know but for now I am reveling in my success and going to ride the momentum. Maybe if I work hard I can actually make that 206 goal by next Friday and be right on target for my doctor's appointment! I really do love hearing him say I'm perfect!!! 

I Hope all you ladies have a marvelous day and enjoy your Tuesday!