Be who you are and say what you feel because those that care do not matter and those that matter do not care 
Dr. Suess

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Yesterday was exhausting, I took my exam ( I got a B- which by the way I am NOT happy about). Midterms stress me out and I didn't do exceptional on the eating front as I was studying, and I didn't sleep all night, so my trying to work on the weight front has been on a scale of 1 -10 a 3 I would say. As I am 100% on everything kind of girl I didn't really like that, but when I am in survival mode (surviving midterms in this case) I just try to make it through the days. I then went to Max and Erma's and got tortilla soup with the ex and had a warm baked cookie - totally delish, but definitely not health or scale friendly. Went home and went straight to bed! I awoke and did the standard routine of going to the bathroom, getting butt naked and getting on the scale. And the results were: 


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drum roll please!!!



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Yes ladies and gentlemen that is right so after my 2 weeks of disaster and last weekend that was a ehh at the most I got on the scale and it said 213!!!! I cried, I started my period today so I am crying at everything, but I did, I bawled like a little baby. 

So its 6 lbs, thats great, but why are crying you nut case? Well I am 2 lbs UNDER my lowest adult weight ever. Yes, I weight less now than I did when I was 17! And in addition to that I AM NO LONGER OBESE!!!!! Today I am only overweight and I am so excited! I feel like I just won an award, like Halle Berry when she was the first African American woman to win an Academy award. I have struggled with so much doubt and wondering if I can do it. I truly felt like I was going to weight 219 for the rest of my life and maybe that was it for me. Could I just be happy there. And after eating my emotions and feeling powerless and horrible. I now see that this is in my head. My biggest enemy is myself! I am in control of my life I make it what it will be. And I am not perfect, but now I have help, that sassy broad inside me won't take my abusive behavior of binging to feign and cover my emotions. I have you all who I can actually talk about my issues with and who are a great support! By the way thanks to those of you who did send some supportive comments. And I have myself, I am strong, honest, and hard working and as long as I use those things to help myself I can achieve whatever I set out to!!  




But, on a bit of a note, I am concerned that the scale was somehow lying to me. Where did those 6lbs go??? How can I weight 219 a week ago and have 4 bad days, and 3 OK days and have not excersized (grant it I have been working all weekend and I serve so I move around alot), not slept for a whole day, been stressed, and start my period (which almost always means a 3 lb bloat) and lose 6 lbs? Is my scale playing tricks on me? Am I going to reweigh and it back to 216?? I don't know but for now I am reveling in my success and going to ride the momentum. Maybe if I work hard I can actually make that 206 goal by next Friday and be right on target for my doctor's appointment! I really do love hearing him say I'm perfect!!! 

I Hope all you ladies have a marvelous day and enjoy your Tuesday!

8 comments:

tessierose said...

Don't question the scale gods. Just accept it and enjoy! Congrats!!!

Sandy Lee said...

I agree don't question. And I shed a little tear for you too. Great work. And you aren't obese any more. Woo Hoo!

Nella said...

Way to go. Just take it all in and ENJOY!

Lindsay said...

WAY TO GO!!! That is awesome!! CONGRATS :)

Em said...

Just to reiterate the other comments - just accept the weightloss and revel in it! Congratulations, that's fantastic!

Em :)

Maria said...

Our bodies are such a mystery, aren't they? Congratulations -- you deserve it!

Bianca J said...

Fantastic! As others have said, just enjoy it. Congratulations!!

Janelle said...

congrats!!!

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